A friendly warning to all friends that share the same fetish

[ppp.petrova]

Dear Friends,
the idea of this post is just to remember that in spite of the big pleasures everyone receives from our fetish, we all should remember that the more extreme we go, the bigger are the chances for some serious health problems.
Here in this post I just want to share what happened to me and with this, I want to say to everybody, just to be more careful and if possible just do not become to extreme in your actions, the consequences might last for life...
So I will try to separate every period of my fetish and what actually happened to me, I'm 32 years old now:
1. Start of anal play: 16-17 years old, start with 1cm in diameter and 6-7cm long... started to discover all beauties of the anal play. Frequency: once per 2-3 months
2. Between 18 - 22years old start to playing with deodorant with 3-4cm in diameter max to 10cm long... using cooking oil for lube... great, great pleasures, and great orgasm. Frequency: once per month
3. 23-24years old I bought my first real dildo... 4cm diameter 15cm long used a real lube... OMG... what a pleasures I had... Frequency: once per week
4. I was using regular dildos in size max to 5cm in diameter and 15-20cm long till I was 28... never had any problems of course... everything was so fucking cool... Frequency once per week sometimes a few times per week

THE FIRST ISSUE
5. A wanted MORE and MORE... and MORE... deeper, bigger and harder and a few days in a week... When I was 28 I started to push the dildos to max so I could see my stomach moving just like Hotkinkjo not exactly so intense but it was great, also two dildos 2x4cm diameter at once it was also great, once my dildo got stuck inside me and it was very hard to pull it out, well I hadn't any problems until one morning when I woke up I touched my belly and I felt it really really hard it was not my muscles just inside... the next morning was the same... I started to feel really tired on some moments, started to have digestive problems. I had very strict toilet work... every day in the same time... , but after that, I just lost the strict toilet time, also I noticed that when I drink water just before sleeping I do not feel the urge to urinate in the night like before, also I started to have a reflux... so I decided to stop with everything and took my dildos and put all of them in the trash
6. I had pause for 6months... of course the problems I had they didn't disappear they was and are still problem for me

THE BIG ISSUE
7. I just wanted to start again... I started with the regular dildo in size 15cm long and 4cm diamter... all was great, but... I wanted MORE
8. I bought my first big dildo 40cm long 3-4cm diamter... it was great to feel it so deep inside me... but... I wanted more... I bought 30cm long 5cm diamter... I took it all and fucked myself really hard... was great... but... I wanted more... then I took my killer 35cm dildo with 8cm dimater I was able to took it all what a great pleasure... fucked myself very hard with it... 
I want to note that I always was starting with small dildos so I can stretch... the problem was that the play was 1-2 hours, and in the night I was waking up to start again
9. The day I think I totally broke myself was when I was in "C" position my ass up, and fucked myself hard with this big dildo, once I started to feel that all of my guts start to move with the dildo moves... no pain... just this feeling, then when I tried to sleep while I was breathing I felt inside may belly very strange movement and sound like splashing hands.. and after that night... all was DOWN for me...

THE FAILURE
10. I started to feel very tired... while I was in the toilet I was thinking that I have a diarrhea but I just was loosen already, when I was eating more than once per day I started to feel very very bad... I started to loose mass, I started to feel all the  time how my guts inside me are moving, and some strange sounds, ALL the time... no matter if already took some food or not... cannot sleep normally, and the worst... in one moment I started to feel some looseness in my butt... and now... I have to squeeze my ass with purpose all the time... I have no senses already there... and more, and more...

My quality of life is now shit... I quit job because I cannot concentrate to work, sometimes I think for a suicide because this is a really freaking situation...
Anyway... my message to all of you is just to be careful and practice our fetish safe, because... the consequences are terrible sometimes...

BEST REGARDS FRIENDS...
P.S. hope that I succeed to explain everything clear, and sorry for some syntax mistakes in the text...

[Upthebutt]

Have you seen a doctor?

[ppp.petrova]

10 minutes ago, Upthebutt said:

Have you seen a doctor?

Dear friend,
I tried different doctors, but here where I'm from they do not have a lot of experience with this type of cases. Also it's really hard for me to talk with somebody about how I caused this to me... even to doctors. I'm still trying to find out what exactly is wrong with my body, because I guess that it's some physical trauma... not only that I'm extended in my butt, but something in my guts... 

[Upthebutt]

Hm, well the thing is you dont exactly know what you have unless a doctor diagnoses you. The thing is, that while yes you're playing would be considered "extreme" by vanilla people, its still very much within line with what other people have pushed themselves too. Many have even pushed beyond that. Some have even purposely developed prolapses and dont complain about symptoms like yours.
Im not saying its impossible but here are a few ideas that come to my mind that it could be:

 

IBS

Colon cancer

A tumor

Maybe a mega colon? Maybe?

 

See how it could be a lot of other things? Either way only a doctor will be able to tell you for sure. If you go in again, focus on the symptoms of whats wrong, rather than the anal play. At the end of the day poo comes out of that hole, and people have pooed big enough to get life threatening fissures, so it could be reasonable that your body did this to itself (although i understand that it might not be necessarily the csse).

 

[Upthebutt]

The only thing I can think of that may help out your situation is doing kegel exercises. Plenty of apps available to help with that and it couldn't hurt to condition your muscles.

[ppp.petrova]

Well, I already did a colonoscopy nothing found, made some tests for bacterias nothing found, made NMR nothing found... it just destroying your normal functionality of the body... as you said it might be a lot of things but believe me... it's just killing me.... every day this kind of discomfort...

[Upthebutt]

I feel like the scan for your colonoscopy wouldve shown that your colon is loose like you feel it is. If you did manage to shift it out of place, it wouldve looked as such. Also, when they fill you up, your enlargement would also be obvious on screen.

 

Whats your diet like? Do you take any fiber supplements? What you have sounds a lot like IBS. IBS wouldn't come up on a scan and is fairly hard to diagnose. Best way to overcome is a whole foods diet, avoiding greasey foods, sugary content, and sticking to high fiber foods. Also i can recommend psylium husk capsules. Its OTC and provides soluble fibers facilitating more solid poops. However, for some it also causes bloating/stomach pain so ymmv.

Edited June 4, 2020 by Upthebutt

[WildAssCock]

eat fibre and banana 

[ppp.petrova]

Well, I forgot to mention and a serious problem to go to the toilet, the feeling for urge to poop is missing... in the same time a cannot defecate normally... I defecate once and after 5-10 minutes I feel that I have to defecate again... while I push it's not as it should be...

[Upthebutt]

@ppp.petrova
just saw which country you are from. Im not aware of what the health care field in your country is like. However, the issues you're having definitely sound like they warrant medical care. Please vouch for yourself as a patient and push until you get a proper diagnosis.

Another possibility that might be at play is a collapsed colon, which is potentially fatal. Please seek care.

 

I am not a doctor, and don't take what I say as medical advice. Only a real doctor can help you, and it sounds like you have a problem that you really need help with.

 

Good luck brother

[ppp.petrova]

12 minutes ago, Upthebutt said:

@ppp.petrova
just saw which country you are from. Im not aware of what the health care field in your country is like. However, the issues you're having definitely sound like they warrant medical care. Please vouch for yourself as a patient and push until you get a proper diagnosis.

Another possibility that might be at play is a collapsed colon, which is potentially fatal. Please seek care.

 

I am not a doctor, and don't take what I say as medical advice. Only a real doctor can help you, and it sounds like you have a problem that you really need help with.

 

Good luck brother

Thank you for your advice, I appreciate it.
I shared this to remind that in the first place we all should be careful what we are doing and how this can affect our life. Because believe me... it's not cool... not cool at all.
If anybody else have had some similar issues, please share your experience and how you handle with that...
 

[adoregapes]

Could he possible tore up his ligaments holding his colon? Is that even possible? The moving guts and the hand splashing sound of your bowels terrified me. See a better doctor and explain your symptoms to him, nobody will know except him.

[Rosebutt]

17 minutes ago, adoregapes said:

Could he possible tore up his ligaments holding his colon? Is that even possible? The moving guts and the hand splashing sound of your bowels terrified me. See a better doctor and explain your symptoms to him, nobody will know except him.

Once again- there are no ligaments holding the rectum in place. Just muscles. Let’s stop with the ligaments thing.

[zaq]

Hi ppp.petrova -do you have access to mental health professional or charities that you can talk to, even if on the telephone? 

Stress and the brain can make a lot of things "real" that aren't necessarily so, IBS can be one example.

I've noticed behaviours in this community that verge on self harm or are self-destructive, maybe your need to wake up and play intensely is a similar outlet?

Ultimately this forum will not give you the solution you need; please contact professionals to discuss your feelings and do not feel that you even have to discuss the physical aspects /play with them if this is a cultural issue.

Edited June 5, 2020 by zaq
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[ppp.petrova]

6 hours ago, zaq said:

Hi ppp.petrova -do you have access to mental health professional or charities that you can talk to, even if on the telephone? 

Stress and the brain can make a lot of things "real" that aren't necessarily so, IBS can be one example.

I've noticed behaviours in this community that verge on self harm or are self-destructive, maybe your need to wake up and play intensely is a similar outlet?

Ultimately this forum will not give you the solution you need; please contact professionals to discuss your feelings and do not feel that you even have to discuss the physical aspects /play with them if this is a cultural issue.

Yes I have access to mental health pros... And I know that I will not receive some solution here, I share this because a lot of people keep explaining that it's safe to ptactice this fetish, but it's not exactly like that. 

I can say a lot more about how and why I reach this extreme part of the fetish, but it's another story, it's not only the pleasure. 

One more thing, for me this extreme anal play directly decreases the erection potential... That's the another thing ruined 

[WildAssCock]

change your alimentation 

[AzFrNick]

Did you get a full checkup done? Ask for a full panel.

It could be something unrelated.

 

[jackshit]

I would bet on something unrelated as well, if you had seriously damaged yourself with this you'd bleed profusely. 

Perhaps some IBS or similar condition that was worsened by your constant play, but I don't think the play alone would cause it.

This forum is probably the most hardcore anal play community in the world and I believe we would have many more similar cases if that was related issue.

[fun_e_gy]

Sounds to me like you need a barium enema.  Any doctor could tell you that and recommend it.  A colonoscopy uses air to expand the colon.  fluid would put weight in the colon to see if it falls in a weight bearing position.  Damage to the mesentery is a slim possibility but they should also do a angiogram to see if the blood vessels to the colon are intact.  I would think that the colonoscopy would see changes in the tissue color if that was the case...... On second thought I think you simply have a potential internal intususeption/ telescoping of the intestine.

[ephemunch]

1. Check out if you have chronic pancreatitis. Check out your pancreatic elastase in your poop and other pancreatic enzymes like lipase in your blood to see if your pancreas is working. If there is really something wrong with pancreas in poop and blood, go and check this organ with endoscopic ultrasound.

2. Check out if you have helicobacter pylori.

3. Check out if you have lactose, fructose and/or glucose malabsorption. IBS is = lactose, fructose and/or glucose malabsorption

4. Check out if you have Diabetes.

I don't believe you have with 32 colon-cancer.

However, do you think you destroyed your butt/intestinal because of your play with extreme long toys or because of diameter of your toys? Most expensive of these check-ups is to check pancreas with endoscopic ultrasound.

If you want to check more your intestinal:

- M2-PK + Hb in poop for colon-cancer

- Calprotectin in poop for inflammation like crohn's disease

- Parasites in poop <- this is not rare, even in industrialized countries

- histamine intolerance in your blood with diamine oxidase

Do you drink alcohol? Have you drunk alcohol since the discomfort? How did you feel after drinking alcohol? Were the complaints worse?

Edited August 5, 2020 by ephemunch

[Hangdown]

It honestly sounds like you have herniated your abdominal muscles and it is causing additional trauma because the muscles are not holding everything correctly.  You may need an MRI or ultrasound to diagnose it. It does not sound like a digestive tract problem. 

[stretchedout]

I hope things are going ok for you and you are learning to live with the changes. 

Maybe you have damaged one or 2 of the pudendal nerves that control and regulate the bowels and all that stuff. I have done something with a hard acrylic plug that also affects how I feel like I need to pee, or poop. everything was regular before the accident, but now quite strange sensation. For me, not as much change as you describe, but yeah - if you go at it like Hot Kinky Jo or Siswet you can come unstuck with one unlucky move.

Just be careful everyone - we love this play, but when you actually overdo it and sever a nerve, sometimes it will never return to "normal" activity. And, you really do miss it!

[Ohyes1978]

I think op needs start fisting again

[lovexlovely7]

thanks for sharing & take care! x