ppp.petrova

Yes I have access to mental health pros... And I know that I will not receive some solution here, I share this because a lot of people keep explaining that it's safe to ptactice this fetish, but it's not exactly like that. I can say a lot more about how and why I reach this extreme part of the fetish, but it's another story, it's not only the pleasure. One more thing, for me this extreme anal play directly decreases the erection potential... That's the another thing ruined

Thank you for your advice, I appreciate it. I shared this to remind that in the first place we all should be careful what we are doing and how this can affect our life. Because believe me... it's not cool... not cool at all. If anybody else have had some similar issues, please share your experience and how you handle with that...

Well, I forgot to mention and a serious problem to go to the toilet, the feeling for urge to poop is missing... in the same time a cannot defecate normally... I defecate once and after 5-10 minutes I feel that I have to defecate again... while I push it's not as it should be...

Well, I already did a colonoscopy nothing found, made some tests for bacterias nothing found, made NMR nothing found... it just destroying your normal functionality of the body... as you said it might be a lot of things but believe me... it's just killing me.... every day this kind of discomfort...

Dear friend, I tried different doctors, but here where I'm from they do not have a lot of experience with this type of cases. Also it's really hard for me to talk with somebody about how I caused this to me... even to doctors. I'm still trying to find out what exactly is wrong with my body, because I guess that it's some physical trauma... not only that I'm extended in my butt, but something in my guts...

Dear Friends, the idea of this post is just to remember that in spite of the big pleasures everyone receives from our fetish, we all should remember that the more extreme we go, the bigger are the chances for some serious health problems. Here in this post I just want to share what happened to me and with this, I want to say to everybody, just to be more careful and if possible just do not become to extreme in your actions, the consequences might last for life... So I will try to separate every period of my fetish and what actually happened to me, I'm 32 years old now: 1. Start of anal play: 16-17 years old, start with 1cm in diameter and 6-7cm long... started to discover all beauties of the anal play. Frequency: once per 2-3 months 2. Between 18 - 22years old start to playing with deodorant with 3-4cm in diameter max to 10cm long... using cooking oil for lube... great, great pleasures, and great orgasm. Frequency: once per month 3. 23-24years old I bought my first real dildo... 4cm diameter 15cm long used a real lube... OMG... what a pleasures I had... Frequency: once per week 4. I was using regular dildos in size max to 5cm in diameter and 15-20cm long till I was 28... never had any problems of course... everything was so fucking cool... Frequency once per week sometimes a few times per week THE FIRST ISSUE 5. A wanted MORE and MORE... and MORE... deeper, bigger and harder and a few days in a week... When I was 28 I started to push the dildos to max so I could see my stomach moving just like Hotkinkjo not exactly so intense but it was great, also two dildos 2x4cm diameter at once it was also great, once my dildo got stuck inside me and it was very hard to pull it out, well I hadn't any problems until one morning when I woke up I touched my belly and I felt it really really hard it was not my muscles just inside... the next morning was the same... I started to feel really tired on some moments, started to have digestive problems. I had very strict toilet work... every day in the same time... , but after that, I just lost the strict toilet time, also I noticed that when I drink water just before sleeping I do not feel the urge to urinate in the night like before, also I started to have a reflux... so I decided to stop with everything and took my dildos and put all of them in the trash 6. I had pause for 6months... of course the problems I had they didn't disappear they was and are still problem for me THE BIG ISSUE 7. I just wanted to start again... I started with the regular dildo in size 15cm long and 4cm diamter... all was great, but... I wanted MORE 8. I bought my first big dildo 40cm long 3-4cm diamter... it was great to feel it so deep inside me... but... I wanted more... I bought 30cm long 5cm diamter... I took it all and fucked myself really hard... was great... but... I wanted more... then I took my killer 35cm dildo with 8cm dimater I was able to took it all what a great pleasure... fucked myself very hard with it... I want to note that I always was starting with small dildos so I can stretch... the problem was that the play was 1-2 hours, and in the night I was waking up to start again 9. The day I think I totally broke myself was when I was in "C" position my ass up, and fucked myself hard with this big dildo, once I started to feel that all of my guts start to move with the dildo moves... no pain... just this feeling, then when I tried to sleep while I was breathing I felt inside may belly very strange movement and sound like splashing hands.. and after that night... all was DOWN for me... THE FAILURE 10. I started to feel very tired... while I was in the toilet I was thinking that I have a diarrhea but I just was loosen already, when I was eating more than once per day I started to feel very very bad... I started to loose mass, I started to feel all the time how my guts inside me are moving, and some strange sounds, ALL the time... no matter if already took some food or not... cannot sleep normally, and the worst... in one moment I started to feel some looseness in my butt... and now... I have to squeeze my ass with purpose all the time... I have no senses already there... and more, and more... My quality of life is now shit... I quit job because I cannot concentrate to work, sometimes I think for a suicide because this is a really freaking situation... Anyway... my message to all of you is just to be careful and practice our fetish safe, because... the consequences are terrible sometimes... BEST REGARDS FRIENDS... P.S. hope that I succeed to explain everything clear, and sorry for some syntax mistakes in the text...