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Everyone should be so lucky. I waited over 15 years for that night and trust me I was ready to chicken out and not go. I guess the lesson is, never give up on your dreams, no matter how long it takes.

@Upthebutt I cant say on this website more than saying party and play. Google is your friend. I know what you mean about privacy and don't show my face online. I just show a view of my pussy. Have fun playing this week.

Wow that's hardcore. I've never pushed that hard with poppers be careful. Have you looked on asspig.com for a top? That's awesome that you have a girl that's into it but if it's a rare occasion it's hard to have fun with that. I'm trying to get into a pattern of partying hard friday and saturday night then resting for the rest of the week. I find this helps to push me to play harder and longer. Before I would play about 30 minutes a day for a total of about 210 minutes or 3.5 hours of play a week. Now with my new schedule I'll play 6 to 8 hours friday night and another 8 hours Saturday night. It's insane to play that much but by the time monday comes around my hole is so happy and sore I know i did a good job. Good luck and have fun.

@Upthebutt I must admit he really did a number on my hole saturday night. When i woke up Sunday there was a little blood but so far it's healing nicely. I guess i should have stopped sooner saturday night but i was having too much fun to stop. It's funny you say that about my hole aching. When i was in the shower this morning I rubbed my hole and OMG I was overwhelmed with this desire to play with it. My mind immediately thought about his big hands and cock and all i could think of is how Hungry my hole is. I'm very excited for our next play night and even right now my hole is sore but hungry. Have you tried asspig.com? It's where I found my top and there's a lot of people on there. It's hit or miss like any dating site but maybe you can find someone locally to top you. As far as this week have fun playing and pumping yourself. Usually when i have time like that I'll pnp and go on chaturbate to broadcast myself playing for fun. Between the pnp, and knowing that anyone can watch me i hours of fun.

@Upthebutt you have no idea how amazing it was. He has very large hands like myself and it was insane how he opened me up and yes he got his full fist in me. At one point he kept going back and forth between his fist and his big black cock. It's was nonstop pleasure that made my entire body shake. He did a number on my hole, today its very sore and stretched out. This guy was a true fisting pro. I brought over 5 of my toys and he did not even bother with them. Between his cock and his fist I was in heaven for hours. Plus he rolled played with me pretending to be my daddy. Never have I felt that much excitement when playing. It was my first time in a fisting swing and at first it was a scarry feeling that I would fall but by the end of the night I loved it. I love how much control it gave him and how he could swing and move me around like a fuck doll. Overall I can't give the night a 10 out of 10 as it was off the scale good. I still close my eyes and picture myself in his fisting swing my head spinnig In pleasure. Plus he was a true gentleman. Not only was he nice and respectful but he was caring. For example when you take a break with most tops they expect you to clean up the lube all over you. Not only would he take the time to help clean me with a paper towel he would then help me get out of the fisting swing. To me that showed how thoughtful and caring he really is. Now i have to wait almost 2 weeks for our next party night. Considering how good the first night was i have a feeling we will keep breaking records as time goes on.

Self fisting is very hard for most people. I find that i cant reach and my hands are too big. I recommend either buying a fake fist from square peg toys or finding a top. A good top will help you to open up and help you reach your goals.

@Upthebutt I took another shot at finding a top and saturday night i won the lotto. The top i found is one in a million. It was like he talked to my body and my pussy and always knew exactly what i needed. We started around 830pm and did not end until 330am. The passion and connection was so intense it was intoxicating. My head is still in the clouds from it and when I close my eyes I can picture myself in his fisting swing. I always knew that if i could find the right top it would be a mind blowing experience and this shattered all of my expectations.

I would be afraid of trying a poppers mask by myself. I see the chance of blacking out with the mask still on. I've never blacked out from poppers but the potential is there and once you do blackout you will be stuck with the mask on. It's too risky in my book I found a new top saturday night and totally forgot about trying the inhaler I bought. Next time.

I'm starting to think it will be easier to get one of these then it is finding a steady top that i can trust. I don't get people these days and the flakes I keep finding are crazy people that I want nothing to do with. Plus here in South Florida half the people in the fisting community have hiv and i dont feel comfortable playing with people who have that. Its great to relax and let a top do their thing but the amount of baggage that comes along with it is insane these days. If i can't find one by Xmas I'm going to consider getting the hismith on Amazon as i dont have to worry about that giving me hiv, canceling on me or telling me that my face pic is not me. That I'm a catfish lol.

I never would have thought of that. I found this one and ordered it. I should have it tomorrow. I'll report back on Sunday with my results. Thanks. https://www.amazon.com/Essential-Aluminum-Blank-Nasal-Inhaler/dp/B078HVJ61B/ref=sr_1_13?crid=3QXUYGK6ZKZQU&keywords=aromatherapy+inhaler+tubes&qid=1572613007&sprefix=inhaler+tubes+a%2Caps%2C175&sr=8-13

Like most of you, I like my poppers and find constantly opening and closing the bottle a pain especially when your hands have lube on them. I usually find myself leaving the bottle open when I'm playing. Due to this I always run the risk of accidentally hitting the bottle, knocking it over and spilling. The bottle is top-heavy and it needs a wider base to prevent this from happening. I'm curious if anyone has a solution to this problem? I was thinking if I can find a way to make the base wider it should slide when I accidentally hit it instead of knocking over. One idea would be to design a 3d printed model where the poppers bottle can fit inside of it. It will have a much wider base and should prevent it from knocking over. I would probably give it a square shape with a cutout in the center to hold the bottle. The only problem with this is the time, the cost and trying to come up with a design that will fit most bottles as I like the larger 30mL bottles. I would have to measure and design the model. Pay a company to make it, mail it to me and hope I got the measurements correct. I could do it but I rather just use something on amazon. What are your thoughts?

I get one every once in a while. Usually it goes away on its own in a week or two. I don't stretch myself fully when I have one and go easy until it's gone. I like to keep my hole wet which I think helps me to heal quicker. I like to put vitamin a and d dipper rash or Vermont bag balm on and in my hole several times a day. I also clean my hole when I do this in the bathroom. I find keeping my hole as clean and wet as possible is critical to a happy hole. I also find the wet hole feeling very pleasurable. I find it also helps my hole heal quicker after a night of hard fisting. When I shower I like to take the shower head put it on jet mode and blast it on my hole for a minute after applying soap. I would suggest doing that twice a day to help keep your hole clean. Lastly I would up your fiber intake with supplements to have a healthier stool. What works for me might not work for you but good luck.

Last weekend it finally happened. After waiting weeks I went to my guy around 10pm Friday night and picked up molly. I got home around 10:30 cut one of the pills in half and swallowed it. The worst part is not knowing what you are getting into until its too late but thats part of the game rolling. I put my numbing cream on my pussy and went outside for a smoke while i waited for it to kick in. It did not take long and about 45 minutes later i knew i was ready. I went into my bedroom got everything all set and went on chaturbate. I spend the next 90 minutes fucking myself for tokens. It was a record for me considering my normal playtime is 20-30 minutes. The feeling from molly was exactly what I was looking for. It made my pussy forever hungry. My dick tho went soft. I kept jerking it but could not get a good hardon going. It did not stop me and i played with all my toys. After the 90 minutes, i took a smoke break, enjoyed the feeling of it all and went back online for round 2. Again my pussy was beyond horny and i played for 80 minutes. This was great and by the end it was 5am and i was spent. I did not cum but went to bed happy. Saturday was spent sleeping and recovering. I was surprised how much molly suppressed my appetite and the only thing i ate all day was a subway sandwich. For some reason, i had a craving for it, lol. That night came around and i was ready to roll again and at 8 pm took a half of a different pill this time. I got 2 types of molly. This one hit me hard and quick. 30 minutes later i was in my room getting ready to go online. This time tho there was a fire inside me and i could not help myself. I spend 120 minutes on cam going to town on my hole. It was very intense and pleasurable. I decided to take a smoke break and enjoy myself for a bit. After that, i started round 2 and again i was an animal. Having a blast playing for the cam. I was online for another 120 minutes opening my hole as much as i can. After that was another smoke break and i had to make a decision. Do i call it a night without cumming or do i take the other half of the pill and keep going. I wanted to cum so i kept going like a good token whore. I took the other half and finished my smoke break. By the time i got onto cam for round 3 i was past 1am and the pill was hitting me hard. I spend another 2 hours fucking myself for tokens but still could not cum. I decided ill take one more smoke break and then i'll find a way to cum in round 4. By the time i got online for round 4 it was almost 6am and all i could think of was cumming. I just kept going using toy after toy trying to figure out what will make me cum when rolling this much. After 2 hours of being online it was almost 8am and i could see the sun peeking through my windows. I kept fucking myself harder and harder and finally, it happened. I came like a rocket and ate some of it too. It was the perfect end to my night. Sunday came and i spent most of the day sleeping and recovering. Now friday night i promised myself i would not do it on sunday as i have work monday morning. However, around 7pm i got the itch and could not say no. It was a mistake but there i was on cam again rolling out of my mind pounding away at my pussy. I did 2 shows each about 2 hours long and came at the end. By the time i went to bed it was 1am but come the morning i was in no condition to go to work. It was my mistake and i needed to learn the hard way i need a day of rest after playing like that. Today, monday, my hole is very sore. I never fucked it like that in my life and im surprised how well it took it. It feels like i was fucked by an entire prision of horny men for 3 nights in a row. Im going to give it a few days rest now to recover. Overall it was a lifechanging experience. Now my goal is to find someone for this weekend who i can roll with. Someone to top me when im like that and really push me to my limits. I hope i can make it happen and ill write another story like this next week about it

Funny, I have the same anal fissure in the same spot. Boy, I did a number on it last night. I was rolling and it was out of this world. I did a 90-minute play session on chaturbate with all my toys and my pump. Took an hour break then did an 80-minute session. Now my hole is nice and sore and I can feel the empty cavern I left inside me. I can't wait to do it again tonight. I think if you use botox responsibly you will have no problems with incontinence or a permanent gape. However, like any muscle you can overdo it and with botox, it will be easier too as you won't feel it. If you stretch your hole 24/7 and keep pushing it bigger and bigger eventually you will stretch the muscle beyond the point of return. This is extreme but if your end goal is a permanent gape and a hole that a fist slides in with no effort you can do it but will have to live with the issues that might arise from it. Everyone is different so the only way to find out if a 24/7 plug for 3 months will leave you with a permanent gape is to try it.

I looked around and the price for botox is not that bad. Between 200 and 300 a session. There are plenty of places that do it but im embarrassed to call and ask id they specifically do anal botox . I might email and see if I get a response. However the anxiety of going through it is a lot. The though of spreading wide for a needle is hard to fathom. I hate needles. When i think of the end goal I feel it will be worth the pain. I would love not numbing my ass for an hour before playing. It would save me a lot of time and headache every time I play. Plus the savings not needing numbing cream would be huge. Im trying to find good info on this but no luck so far. Does anyone have any info on anal botox?

This is the one i had. Magic Wand Massager with Free Wand Essentials Speed Controller https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0089175GE/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_cR2SDb88RB20G

I tried that once and I thought i would enjoy it but i really did not. I got the magic want with a large head and an adjustable speed controller. I put it in me, turned it on and found it uncomfortable. The hard plastic head did not feel good inside me. It felt like the hard plastic was vibrating against bone. After a few uses I gave up on it. What I learned is the idea is good but without a soft head its not pleasurable.

Are you looking to insert the wand inside of you?

That's awesome you have a wife. After what happened with my ex girlfriend I'm afraid to try and date another woman. The main reason is fear of rejection for being myself. I feel like the odds of me finding a woman who would smile and say sure ill fist you is impossible. Just 2 days ago i meet a nice sales woman at my job and she practically asked me on a date asking me if i was married, single or if I had kids during out conversation. She was my type with blonde hair big blue eyes and a hot body but I froze like a deer in headlights and shrugged off her advancements. I know i should not fear it but after my ex I do. I fear that moment when I tell then I'm different and their response. Just thinking about it I can hear my ex telling me that I'm gay and I need a man. I want to be proud of who I am but I feel broken when it comes to this. That I can't accept who I am and be happy to tell a girl I'm different, ill fuck you but i want you to fuck me in the ass in return. I feel so exposed saying that and I guess that's why I feel uncomfortable tell it to a date. That until I get out there and try it I'll never learn to accept it. That I have to grow a set and tell my date right in the eye I'm an ass fisting slut with a huge gaping hole and I'm proud of it.

I dont see why it would be more dangerous. Just keep in mind you are pumping both your insides and outsides and the same time. I would suggest starting slow with light pressure like you said and time it. Only give yourself 5 to 10 minutes until you learn what works best for your body.

I'm new to pumping but what I'm learning is how easy it is to over do it. There's a fine line between a good pump and too much. I find it very easy to ignore the pain and keep going. Right now i find what is best is to limit my pumping to 10 or 15 minutes a day. I tried doing more and was surprised how easily my hole bruised. I felt like my hole could take anything but after a few days of pumping I realized how false this was. In short dont over do it and listen to your body. Also dont be afraid to take a pumping break for a day or 2 to give your hole a rest.

https://www.bespokesurgical.com/prevention/anal-botox-services/ Found one doctor. It was interesting to read about it. Maybe i can find one in my area.

That sounds intense. I like to use lidocaine to numb my pussy but the feeling comes back in an hour or 2. What you are talking about is on another level. 3 to 6 months of not feeling your hole is extreme. On the lidocaine i have to be careful not to push myself too far or i can hurt myself. On the botox you must feel nothing which could be good or bad. Good if you have a proper worked out hole and want to play within your safe zone. Bad if you have a tight hole and think you can just keep pushing until you get it in. You don't want to rip open your hole and have to live with the damage for the rest of your life. Given all that i might try it as im a sick fuck lol. Is the doctor in the USA?

I like the feeling of wearing one around the house. My biggest issue is keeping it wet. I find that ever hour or 2 i need to remove it and apply more lube. I also have found pumping is helping to losen up my hole. After a good pump my hole really opens up and is ready to stretch. I'm pumping almost daily now as i like it a lot.

I have the sling large from square peg toys. It was the first toy I bought from them. At first I really liked it and enjoyed the deep play but after a little while I realized it's more of a warm up toy. That i need something thicker that i can give myself a good hard fuck with. I now have 5 toys from square peg and only use the sling as a warm up. Something to open me up, help the lube get deep in me and make sure I'm fully clean. I have thought of getting a larger one but the price and all the other options out there are holding me back. I really want to try Mr hankys toys next.