loonie56

thanks for the support I needed to hear that. I am going to enjoy this journey and finally do what feels good to me and not worry about what others think. Glad I found this forum it has already helped me a great deal.

thanks for the advice and support. I want to buy some toys which is better dildos or butt plugs? I love the feeling of fullness are there different toys for deeper penetration and for just widening my hole?

I have exciting news at least for me. It seems my asshole is bigger than I thought. I have managed to fully insert 5 fingers up my ass. OMG it felt so fuckin good. I really wanted some feedback from my previous post but haven't received any yet. I am totally new at this shit but totally obsessed with being in my ass. It's all I want to do. I read the topic about self-fisting I guess I possibly could do it since I have already got my hand inside but did not make a fist. I am a bit sore around the inside rim of my hole just on one side but it was not painful just kind of tender. Could it be a hemrroid or too much work too quickly?

I am a 56 year old female who has had anal fascinations since childhood. However I kept these feelings thoughts and ideas to myself. I have been married 3 times and none of my husbands were into anything anal or oral for that matter. In my later years now I have come to terms with my fetishes and kinky desires. I do not enjoy vaginal sex because I am so small and it becomes very painful. However I had one encounter with someone who I had anal sex with and I have never forgot how wonderful and enjoyable it was. I have for the last couple of years masturbate always in my ass. I am totally fixated on it. I even get aroused when having a bowel movement. Now I want to expand my plateau and plunge into the depths of what pleasures me. Stretching my anus and finally developing a rose butt. My question is to all of you who know more about this than me. Am I too old? And what it advise would you give me. I have been using a 8" dildo in my ass which I can take without problem, and want to invest in a butt plug bought a small one which was a waist so I think maybe i can handle a medium size one. I also am very into the desire to pump my clit, pussy, and anus with a hand pump. All these things are a turn on to me. Maybe after all of this I will be ready to trust someone to fist me, I hate anything that will cause me pain or injury. Can any one help me with my quest. I am glad I found this forum this is just what I needed it. Thanks for being here Loonie56