Hi, I'm totally new to this forum.
This forum is something I have been looking for a long time, I have never seen myself as gay nor do I fancy men but from a young age I discovered I really liked playing with my asshole.
I was very shy when I was in my teens and didn't have first gf till I was 16, i new I enjoyed a little anal but I just did it secretly as I was young and embarrassed at the thought of anyone finding out.
I had collected a few toys to play with around the age of 18 but I got rid of them all in fear of them been found, remember I was young and had no one to open up too.
I met my now partner of 8 years in 2008, stopped playing around with my ass from 2008 as I was scared to ever mention about my (taboo) to my partner. till like 2011 when I secretly bought a dildo for me to play with while she was out working, I no I did wrong here as I should have told her I enjoy playing with my ass but never had courage. As the years have gone by now 2017 were still together but I have a huge collection of toys hidden in the loft, some very big as u all can imagine. I get a lot of free time as she works nights so I get a lot of time to play. I just love everything about anal sex, I've never been with a male partner or ever cheating on my girlfriend other than with the dildos.
I know she noes that I like anal sex but it's just something we dont talk about, she only brings it up in arguments and I just go quiet till the subject changes, she doesn't have a clue about all the toys I have hidden in the loft. She probably just thinks I like a cock in my arse, when really American bombshell bunker buster is more for me.
I could explain more but basically I'm after advice on how I can break it to my partner on my love for anal sex, at the same time explain that I'm not into men just into there cocks well plastic/rubber/silicone versions of cocks, I want to spend the rest of my life with my girlfriend but I have a feeling I'm just trying to have my cake and eating it? Any help or advice would be great peeps. Btw I hope my post doesn't offend anyone as I like to think I show love and respect to everyone