I'll try to continue. I wrote the last huge message on this laptop that I switched to. It might not have got posted because I had a script blocker on. Unfortunately I didn't copy it elsewhere. I'm using that laptop now but I have disabled the script blocker. I'll copy it before posting... just in case.
I should mention I had met another hooker who was totally uninhibited and got her to try to fist me. I was showing things up het but too. I joked asking if she would allow me to fist her ass and she said that she might yell and scream but I could try I didn't do it as she was fairly tight that day even when I used toys on her. I became good friends with her and she was even living in my house until recently. Unfortunately, she didn't want to have sex with people that were her friends because many of her early sex associations involved violence. I never did anything else with her except one time before she said that to me. She was at my house for a couple of days and I had no idea when we were having sex or anything. When she wanted to do it, I hadn't had time to use an enema. I told her and she said don't worry. She got in almost all the way pretty painlessly and quickly but then she either felt something inside or smelled something and decided to stop. She was farly tiny and had small hands. On the first occasion where she didn't get in I had used poppers and we were drinking real absinthe which she had never tried before. It was supposed to be an hour call but she let me hang out for 5 hours. One of her johns was going to show for a 2 hour session though and I left even though she said I could come back afterward. I was pretty exhausted at the time (mostly partying). The second time at my house may have been the time she gave me some of her cocaine. I had used occasionally when I was in my early 20s. What I hadn't expected is that it gave me a mood lift (no euphoria though). I had been trying antidepressants for a few years that weren't working and I realized this had enough of a mood lift to make me feel like I wasn't depressed. So I've been using coke for that effect since. Likely I had done a few smallish lines of coke the day she could have got in.
That was about 5 months ago.
So my new enthusiastic fisting friend was not able to get in quite as deep as the first time. Based on recollection, I had used an old "Pure Amyl" popper that I got a couple of years ago, I was on Coke and she also used her coke technique. The Lube was Wet Uranus water based lube (I think the coke along the sphincter technique won't work unless it is water based lube to dissolve it and so it can be absorbed). She also used an anal relaxing spray that I got at some point called Intimate Organics Adventure for Woman - which contains clove, goji berry, aloe and lemongrass.
I wasn't able to see her again for 2 or 3 weeks. In the meantime I had read about people using jojoba oil in their lubes or using the silicone one with it in it. I ordered a couple of different pure organic bottles of it from amazon. I decided to try it out once it arrived and to see if I was still loose. I squirted some of the oil in my butt and I used the Wet Uranus lube. I didn't numb anything. I likely used a popper but I don't recall. I was able to quickly get my 4 fingers in easily when I pulled them out there was dark red blood on them. I noticed that my fingernails weren't perfectly trimmed, so I suspected that caused it.
For my next visit with her I had the Wet Uranus lube, the coke numbing trick, the jojoba oil, a bunch of new poppers and Eros Explorer anal relaxant. It contains Aqua, laureth-9, PEG-6 caprylic/capric glicerides, methyl lactate, lactic acid, eugenia,caryophyum, sodium benzonate, potassium sorbate, eugenol (whatever they are).
So we started with the eros explorer to loosen me up, she used the coke and lube, I asked her to pour a bit of the jojoba oil in. I got really loose but soon she saw the dark red blood and had to stop. I had a bad reaction to the Jojoba oil. I'm not sure if it was just too much or not refined in a certain way. I haven't read about others having a similar reaction. It did loosen things quite a bit but we stopped. An hour or two later, I notice the bleeding stopped. I called her and she was enthusiastic coming back. We did everything the same excluding the Jojoba oil. She did quite good. She wasn't able to get in as deep as her very first visit, but I was feeling great sensations as she was massaging and playing with the inner sphincter. She also got the walls between the 2 sphincters to expand to the size that a baseball might fit in. She would ask me to move in a certain way or take a hit from a popper as she held me open causing fart like noises as the muscles relaxed. After a while we stopped as it was daylight. All in all she spent more than 4 hours in my ass.
We've been staying in touch regularly. This time my external sphincter was tender from all the rubbing and pushing. There was no blood but it did hurt one time when I pooped. I wasn't sure how to make this quickly feel better. I ended up using a mixture of Preperation H and Hydro cortisone 1% and Tucks medicated wipes.
I called her back about 5 days later. This time, I used an app on my phone that sent video from it's camera to my laptop so that I could watch her while she fisted me. The phone was on a harness below her chest. I bought the harness on Amazon (if anyone wants to try). Because I kept looking up to watch, I wasn't relaxing properly (I think). I also decided to get her to use coke that I had in chunks that I hadn't powdered. They didn't absorb as well. I had also been microdosing on coke all day and I wanted to do a larger amount while she was here. I'm not sure if being off it mostly during the day affected anything.
She wasn't able to get too far. I was quite tight. We used poppers, JO H20 water based anal lube, Eros Explorer relaxing spray and Adam and Eve Easy Anal desensitizing gel which has 7.5% of Benzocaine. This Benzocaine gel says for external use on the bottle but their site tells you that it can be applied to toys before inserting meaning internal use. Trivia, most cocaine for sale these days has low purity. I get mine from a source that tests the highest level for purity using the Purity test kits. One of the common cuts in cocaine is benzocaine, so anyone who uses this technique may already be using benzocaine anyway.
During this visit I had also set up another laptop with a video camera snake. It's a tiny video camera surrounded by tiny lights that is on a long plastic cord. You can use this for many things including blocked pipes. I previously had to use it to make sure I had no tiny pieces of glass in my butt after I did a cocaine booty bump using a glass baby dropper that I cracked by mistake (it cracked outside my butt, but instead of thinking to push it out with my butt, I tried grabbing the end to pull it out. it ended up going in a bit and 2 tiny glass pieces were inside my butt. I was able to get them out using a ton of enemas. Fortunately I didn't have to go to the hospital and had to try to explain how I fell on the dropper and it went up my butt;)
We didn't get around to using this as I was not stretching. I'm really not sure what happened that day.
She came back the next day. I didn't use the laptops as I thought they were possibly distracting me from relaxing. I tried to recreate what we did the first day. I was pretty high before she got there, we used about a similar amount of coke as the first time, I switched back to the "Adventure for Woman" anal relaxer. Things went pretty well. she was stretching my inner sphincter and was able to get 4 fingers in and stretched it more. I asked her to try spraying the 'Adventure for Woman' relaxer on my inner sphincter. That was a mistake as red blood started appearing. We had to stop. That was yesterday.
It's funny that we got almost all the way in the first time but haven't done as well the others. I'm much more at ease with her now, so it's not nervousness.
One thing I forgot to mention is that I had large vinyl gloves and she is tall but thin. The gloves are a bit large and the rubbing irritates my outside sphincter. I'm thinking of trying nitrite gloves.
Any suggestions of what may help loosen me. I was occasionally stretching but it was very irregularly before the first time I saw the escort that easily got her fist in using just lube. I don't enjoy doing it myself anymore as it can't compare to her enthusiasm. Also, she plays around with my prostate from in there which helps. I haven't done anything else sexual with her while she fists me, but I wonder if doing something would help release chemicals that would help before going in.
I don't think my problem is relaxing as I am quite relaxed with her but I wonder if anyone tried the Android app Brainwaves for relaxation? It supposedly produces frequencies that cause your brain to go into a relaxation mode. You need to use it with headphones and I'm not sure if you will get all the frequencies with cheap headphones.
I should point out that I also regularly use Tylenol 3s (I have a tolerance so I don't even notice even if I take more) I think I took 4 or 5 just before she arrived the last couple of times.
I also take Clonazepam for anxiety daily. I tried taking extra before she came on the day I was tight. It didn't help.
Because of all the stretching time I would have expected some progress.